Horrah!
Hello lovely humans :)
I did a good thing for myself recently.
After spending way too much time being unhappy in love, I decided that I want to be done with wallowing in my self-pity and move the f*** on with my life!
And so I booked the Living Free program with Lindsay O’brien, a 12-week coaching and emotional healing program aimed at “helping women release subsconsious blocks that are holding them back from real love”. Or in other words, break the cycle of bad relationships and find true love.
As cheesy as it sounds, I imagine it’s exactly what I need right now.
Once I signed up and made the first payment, something funny happened…
It was like my energy shifted. I felt different.
And although my new coach is a sort of energy healer, I imagine it has more to do with this:
In one of her introduction videos, she reiterated the point that those of us who have joined the program are the ones who are committed.
Committed to overcoming our bad relationships.
Committed to our healing.
Invested in moving on and creating a better way of relating, loving and being loved for ourselves.
Yeah! I thought. I am invested! I am committed to this thing.
Cue happy dance:
What an epiphany, to commit to my own self-love and growth like that.
It seemed like within minutes, something inside me shifted. Like a wall was coming down around my heart. Suddenly, I felt more open.
After being closed off to dating and meeting new people for months, I found myself having a long (sexy) chat with an online acquaintance I’d been in touch with for over a year. Until then we’d never met in real life, as I was too terrified and anxiously avoidant to actually meet a person and go on a date!
The next day we met in real life(!). My heart and body opened enough to let him inside. I judge it was a beautiful, liberating, and healing experience for me, a person who was so heartbroken that I honestly thought I might never feel comfortable having sex or getting close with anyone again…
And now suddenly, the men I’ve been matching with on dating apps (how else do you meet people these days? please tell me) don’t seem so bad or uninteresting anymore. I even found myself talking to a few handsome, interesting strangers who seemed to be decent human beings and likewise find me intriguing.
This is in stark contrast to my experience a few months prior. I judge I have been angry, bitter, cold, closed off and cynical about dating and men in general. Which is a heavy place to be. I get tired just thinking about it.
It’s such a beautiful feeling, watching myself open up again after being closed off and heartbroken for a while.
So much seemed to shift for me just by booking that program. Then a friend of mine shared this lovely poem about commitment by Goethe which I feel explains it so well:
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Until one is committed, there is always hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative and creation, there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising to one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance which no one could have dreamed would come her way. Whatever you can do or dream you can begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
So maybe, as soon as I had realized I was truly committed to getting over this bad breakup and moving on with my life, “providence” stepped in to play a part. To help me unfold and manifest my dreams of being happy, feeling like myself again, getting my confidence back and attracting loving and fulfilling relationships.
What do you think about this poem from Goethe? Have you experienced something similar when you committed yourself fully to a decision, plan, or dream?
Did you watch as the universe seemed to unfold around you in the most supportive, mind-blowing way?
Is there a goal, project, or dream that you’ve been half-assing lately? Not fully committing to it and not stepping back either?
Could you be ready to commit to it 100% now for the love of yourself?
What might that look like?
With love, honestly
Chelsea
Great article Chelsea! I am also committed to creating healthy relationships. And I’m invested even if I don’t have the money to invest in any coaching programs. I’m committed to and invested in this healthy relationship creation.